My own 2007

From the very first hi，
I was compelled with 2007 benignly，
when I missed this stop that night，
to see again，
18 years ago when this fight began.

I can not remember when I was coerced to be called "the generation of 7". With too much sadness mixed with too much over happiness, I should have predicted this year.
This should be the very last rain in 2007. From the refraction of the raindrop, not only those pretty Christmas Trees, but also a dejected eye with dim mood can be seen.
07 really leave.
Do 07 really leave?
Do 07 finally leave?
Perhaps，I have a little bit of longing。
Said the New Year Even，I am being dragged by my hypersensitive nerve to 365 days ago when, without snow, was a no snowy New Year Day… No more New Year Eves could impress me so much as the last one did not because of the magic of the magic chicken. Except longings, hopes, satisfactions, happiness, including a little infantilism, what else the picture of Utopia need? At that time, I had what I wanted and did not have what I hated. With sending messages to friends, sipping some Cola, dipping the chips, I ate the whole hamburger. However, the more pretty and welfare the drawing is, the more fragile the dream could be.
That my life was involved into chaos left me no time to realize what happened.
One became abnormal who was I or ever been thought as me since that indeed was I who finally was found to be not me. One started woolgathering that I should do or ever been regarded as correct although I indeed should not do but finally I found I should. One preferred impatience which I did not want, but chose, which should not have preferred and turned out that I did not want.
With foully invocation to the calyx canthus, during a whole month’s surfing, I tried to smile to myself, however, being beaten down by myself again.
Followed a heavy disease, a man who, when he is clear—head, can not be conscious, but, becomes sober knowing what he need when he is lying on the bed. Although I can stand up again, the knife was still there, the scar was there, and the route carefully sewed the wound was still there.
Can choosing to forget extricate me?
Suddenly, I just realize that for the kink, sometimes to cut it is more important than to extricate it. Now I feel, at that time, I was too stupid maybe because of pressures or yearn or just that clubs tree, or nothing that I had been depressed for too long time getting a serious sick.
After raining, sunshine will be waiting for me, sometimes even rainbow. When I saw my smile again, I asked myself why not. I did not know, but fortunately, it had gone, gone. New life began, since it became monotony, since I sometimes was at a loss, but I after all a glowing sun.
Fiction liking to say good times don't last long is not baseless.
Second examination did not leave me a good gift. Impetuously, I never became jumpy like that time. Without thinking, I can only believe my feeling, sometimes even without feeling
For Gaokao and going aboard, I do not need to say too much. Believe me, sometimes, the heaven can really be collapsed.

The rain stops. Classmates come back. Laughers are circling in the aisles amazingly consistently. Watching outside of the window, the lights for Christmas have not been taken away. I suddenly find that the hair seems so long that it should be cut.
07 really leave.
Do 07 really leave？
Do 07 really leave me and never come back？
Perhaps, I find I can not receive this truth.
I can promise that this must be the last blog in 2007!
Howbeit I lost a lot; I after all have ever received. The warm is still in my mind. Because I can take it up, I should also learn how to give it up. Because of waiving, I found it valuable for me. Because of value, I hoped to catch. Because of hopes, I lost again.
Study is hard, because of too much honey. Everyone’s ever laughter, discussion and suspiration are always around me even if I try to avoid him whose relationships is so deep that, I think, the words are from Teacher Wang.
Under the light from the lamp in midnight, with the familiar shadow, sometimes I feel whether I am too welfare.
I am surprised to find that I can even so even be so happy, that I can be more successful, that I can do much better. There are that huge amount of people worrying about me, such a lot people regards me with new views, developments I having had.
I began to be willing to try every kind of challenges. To challenge different kinds of me who want more different challenges, I will laugh at wealth, nod to fame, run away from compliment. What I want to do is hide my experiences and write them down carefully, using letters from me mind, from the rain, from the small dimple.
Little by little, dreams as gifts for Christmas pleasantly surprise me a lot for everything changing too fast that I can not bear, for everything I chose to be my love that finally I found was a joke made by the God.

The bang from the bell of UC Berkeley wakes me up without calling up the memory which will be buried. Certainly, I will have a good weather with beautiful California sunshine which is always alluring.
07 really leave.
07 do really leave！
07 do really leave calmly！
Oh, the real meaning of 07 is not that fighting, not walking though US, not the bless that Happy New Year.
Therefore, drop is a kind of achievement. The more I dropped, the more I got. I remember that somebody has told me that the more we get, the more we will lost. But do we just want to complete who have more candy at last? No, what we really care about are those lost and achieve which are called experiences.
Before I could not understand why I have to leave my own country, my own hometown, my own friends, my own family, But when I get up at 3 o’clock in the morning, carefully count the time, and make sure every detail, I know everything that I have never left them and my mind.
Before I liked to ask if one day, I suddenly left, would any one still remember me. Before I liked to say the difference between people who I loved and who loved me is how I deal with. Mostly, when I tried to solve these issues, just a moment, I can get the right answer. But funnily, the answer from after thousands of thinking rather than a moment is always too crude, too fragility. “Thank you, Sorry, That’s OK, You are welcome” sometime are really useful.
What the most difficult method people are on is not a brambly way or a high way because on those roads, we at least have an aim that we need to do is following our own aims without thinking anything. More difficult thing is to choose one from two completely different ways. I like to regret because I want to be consummate. But when you have chosen one way, no matter what is the result, you have been successes. Because you can never know what is the end of the other one and the history will be changed with your choosing. American like to say “which one is good?” but the meaning of this sentence is not as it looks like. It tells you to let the thing have already passed pass. New life, new way and you have begun. Because we can never know the end, we can never get an answer to this question. So it is a answer rather than a question.

San Francisco does not have snow, but have blood.